I have to make a decision and I can't decide.
I can't ask anyone for help because anyone is part of the decision.
I chose intricate methods that prevented me from dealing with the actual subject
and now
I start realizing.

Pick Up The Shade

There is always someone or something not getting enough light. When the shade is the cause of a man being in the dark we would say it’s not our fault, it’s the sun as a natural flash point.
What seems unattainable at first blush accounts for this man’s life.
Pick up the shade because light is essential!

Circuitous

I always try not to hurt anyone.
Perhaps some would call it addiction to harmony...
...Why do I have to hurt someone who loves me?
...Why can't love be equipollent on both sides??
...And why can't anyone just give me a simple answer to this???

Any Catch

There are those exigous but vital moments that arrive unheraldedly.
When someone understands me without saying a word.

Your Not Alone

There is no one so demented that he cannot find someone even more demented who understands him.
Friedrich Nietzsche

I'm thankful to say it's true.

Another abortive attempt

I can endure most kind of sorrow... may it be to lose someone or simply get disappointed owing to a certain event. I don't believe time does heal any pain but it makes us forget. Unfortunately evil sorrow seems to emanate not from any incident but only from feelings. This is driving me to despair, not knowing for what reason I feel so restless... there is just an immense emptiness, and it ends as unexpected as it has begun. Yeah, it should be only a phase but it's been even more than that for a long time...

Wrong Face

To me one of the worst mistakes a person can do is adapting their opinion depending on whom to talk to.
I don't mean trifles but principles that change every minute.
This causes nothing but trouble. You will never be sure what is truth and what a fake.

My personal proof that the emotional network does exist...

It's amazing how one single person is able to change a whole life.
That's nothing new, I know.
But living it my own is so new...

The Travel Bug...

...is a disease.
Standing on a wide field and breathing the cold fragrance of nature. The stormy sea keeping up and destroying lives. The distance between the evening star and us. The sunset tavern surrounded by dry pines.
Loud chirping.
I experienced that most people don't even know its meaning. This peculiar feeling of belonging anywhere else. Just anywhere, not at a particular place. I remember the moment when I woke up in a gloomy room. Insignificant but there was this special smell in the air that reminded me of a place I had never been. It is hard to desribe and easy-understandable for someone who senses this kind of tension that is somewhat problematic to interpret. I cannot be sure myself if I got it right. It's no desire for extending vacation, it's a longing for freedom.

Close Match

Last year I was part of those worst detractors on our best results-awarded students.
I was proud to say I am envious.
This year I am part again but part of our best results-awarded students. I can't feel pride... should this be a lesson?

The Wrong Definition

Who prescribes what reality means...
The wrong definition is to believe we were the centre of the world.

Me & Myself

I am egoistic, naïve and self-centred.
I notice the grief around me and I put up with it.
I don't fight my enemies.
I avoid any conflicts
not due to my distinctive spiritualism
but to my lethargy.

The End of a Thought

I thought trying to find answers to the problems of others means altruism.
Now I know that it's only one out of a thousands policies to flee from my own problems...

A Tiny Fun in a Big World

Being terribly foolish can be extremely relieving for five minutes.
Not caring for what other people may think about this for a whole day.

Protect Me

There is someone living in me.
He determines on everything, he is stronger than me and he always wins.
Is it something like a love-hate relationship... how come that he would aid my recovery...

Fear

I am frightened of myself.
I better close your door.

Stand and Wait

One moment can really change everything.
Depending on if I see an inspiring film, listen to a marvellous song, read a deep book, admire an enchanting picture.
I feel let pass the opportunity.
Being an actress, a musician, an author, a photographer...
I may thank my stars that I don't have to decide.

From India

Based on the fact that our charisma is reflected in how people behave towards us we should never miss a chance in giving the one or the other smile to others.
We cannot lose, we only gain.

Inner Ear

I wonder why the world is closed today.
Did I say anything wrong?

Finding the Key

I believe we do not have strengths and weaknesses in ourselves.
Your weakness could change into your greatest strength only this moment.
You better chum up with them cause they want to stay with you.

Prayer of Remission

If one mistake made us suffering in hell,
we'd be there for a thousand times.
If one attempt to learn from them makes you see paradise,
I'll maybe dart a short glance at its gate...

A Single Atom

When I see all those countless methods that are not impossible I am surprised what life can bring. There is always someone being more successful, richer, smarter, skilfuller, better at anything than you. It is human getting depressed in the midst of comparability. But there is no need. I perceive it as a daily challenge starting from zero to change for the better, matched with myself...

My Trunkless Holiday

Music makes me forget about everything 'outside' ...
trouble, pressure, duty
but never about my considerations.

T O L E R A N C E

The word we use in discussions when talking about people who we actually don't understand.
I'm tolerant.
I can't tolerate intolerant people ! I can't tolerate people talking over where to get the next drink all their fucking lives ! I can't tolerate people insisting on their point of view ! I can't tolerate rich people never buying the Motz or the Straßenfeger ! I can't tolerate people not liking rock music !
I can't tolerate people voting for the NPD ! I can't tolerate people calling me intolerant ! Because everyone knows: I'm tolerant.

Touch

I stop breathing
and I try to hear.
And I see to it that I remember,
just to be sure you're not gone.

If there were only copies of myself...

If there were only copies of myself living on this planet the world would not have any politician. Not that I were not good at telling lies but bad at enduring the effects...

The Fate or Not

It's a superfluous thought, that's why I can't stop thinking about it.
Does the fate exist?
Can we prove that it doesn't exist?
Yes.
If I wanted I could try to take the next plane to any far-off place right now.
So I would do something I wouldn't have done if I hadn't wanted to change my fate.
Can we prove that it does exist?
It was my fate to change my fate on purpose.

Seek for the Truth

The probability that all my beliefs suddenly could be exterminated completely makes me so scared sometimes. The possibility that everything I believe in is real gives me confidence all the more and all the time.

Pan

Phaedrus: But let us go, now that it has become less oppressively hot.

Socrates: Shouldn’t we first offer a prayer?
Phaedrus: Of course.
Socrates: Dear Pan, and all you other gods who live here, grant that I may become beautiful within, and that whatever outward things I have may be in harmony with the spirit inside me. May I understand that it is only the wise who are rich, and may I have only as much money as a temperate person needs.
-- Is there anything else that we can ask for, Phaedrus? For me, that prayer is enough.

Phaedrus: Make it a prayer for me too, since friends have all things in common.

Socrates: Let’s be going...